torturing?

i'm torturing myself

everyday i read your blog to see whether you are okay or not

you aren't my friend but i felt bad

i am not pitying you.. but i really do feel bad

because of what my friends went through during the past

when i thought of what they went through last time
The hardship they went through...
immediately i thought of you

it's not my fault right...

for the reason which cause the thing to happen

but i can't and won't let go =*(

i promise this is my last time feeling like this